
I am seeding an article that I read over the weekend in the latest edition of Self Magazine. The article talked about eating disorders and disordered eating. I have never heard of disordered eating, but found myself identifying with one of the six categories defined in the article: Calorie Prisoners. Per the article, "Calorie prisoners are terrified of gaining weight, tend to see food as good or bad and feel extremely guilty if they indulge in something that's off-limits."
For the first 25 years of my life, I did not have to even think about what I was eating. I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain a pound. Then, last May, I turned 26. My body started to shift. By the end of the year, I was staring to notice some "giggly" spots that were never there before. This scared me. Two generations before me have struggled with weight issues. My mother continues to struggle. And her mother, my Nana, never won the battle - she died of a diabetic coma thirteen and a half years ago.
So, like millions of other people around the world, I made a New Year's resolution to start working out on a more consistent basis. In addition, I was going to start watching my calories.
Now, there is nothing wrong with working-out on a regular basis to maintain health. I did not get to the point where I was working out too much and/or over exerting myself. (Per the article: Extreme exercisers work out despite illness, injury or exhaustion and solely for weight loss. This is another disordered eating category.)
I did however become obsessed with counting calories. I found websites on which I could log my meals. I studied and compared food choices and would deny myself food even if I was still hungry, for the simple reason that my calorie count for the day would not allow it. On weekdays, it was easy to log everything, since I spend 8 hours a day on the computer anyways. I could plan ahead to make sure I knew what I could and could not have once I got home. Then on weekends, I would race to my computer anytime I ate or drank something with caloric value. I had to log it! If I didn't log it, I'd forget, and then it would throw off my daily count!
It became an obsession. I had a fear of gaining weight. I had a fear of being the third generation of having weight issues. Both generations before me did not have weight problems until their late-20's. I was not in the clear! Anything could happen! I needed to get control now!
But then it hit me. As long as I make wise choices, and I maintain an active lifestyle, I do not need to run to the computer after every little bite. I know what things I should and should not have. I understand how to eat in moderation. I do not grab the tub of ice cream and eat it in one sitting. I scoop it into a coffee mug and enjoy a serving. I eat fruits and/or veggies with every meal. Just from working out, the giggles I had started noticing have gone away.
While calorie counting and logging my foods for the first quarter of this year confirmed that I do know how to make wise decisions, I refuse to keep a daily log any longer. I was a prisoner.
Will I ever log my foods again? Yeah, probably. I may check-in once in a while to make sure I am still making good decisions. But I will never allow myself to become obsessed again. .... But I must admit, it is still a struggle to NOT think about it. I am a calorie prisoner. Whether or not I physically count the calories, they may hold me prisoner forever. Why? Because I have a fear of what my genes might hold for my future....
Gemini this is a great article. Calorie counting is one of the many things, I think, that can become an obsession. For me there was a similar compulsion with making sure I was up on time in the morning. I remember some nights not being able to go to bed without checking the alarm clock about ten times, and even reading it back to myself to reassure myself that I was not going to oversleep. It's not as serious as obsession over weight I suppose, but it's just an example.
I'm glad that you found your real working method for making sure you maintain a healthy weight. I think what you've found is that using your natural sense of balance will keep you on track, because usually if you're eating way too much you can tell when your wheels upstairs start turning and you think, "Hey I've eaten a lot of jelly donuts recently. That natural sense of balance, like other natural senses, can be really useful if ya pay attention to it. :) I have the same type of worries as you. Ever since I got out of high school, where I played basketball, I've been conscious of the little fluctuations of the gut. I'm sure you'll be beautiful no matter what though, so keep on keeping on and don't beat yourself up over it :)
I avoid calorie counting. I simply try to eat healthy foods.
Nice article.
That's a good strategy. I usually give myself a day every once in a while to splurge and let out all of those repressed desires for zingers. :)
I actually count calories so I can eat unhealthy foods. I find that by being aware of what the calorie count sometimes is enough to deter me. Other times I just work it in to my overall count for the day. But I use more of a guesstimate approach rather then a strict approach.
Gemini:
I bend the rules once in a while and have the hot fudge waffle sundae. :)
So do I. We all need a little sugar in our bowl, now and then. :-)
Jeremy:
But I use more of a guesstimate approach rather then a strict approach.
Good idea. Whatever works. IMO, as long as you don't feel like a slave to the issue, it's okay.
One thing that tends to cause weight gain in women that is totally underestimated is stress. I am a stress gainer. I was one of those that could eat pretty much to my hearts content, until my early thirties. I started gaining weight, and had repeated failures, gaining, losing a few pounds, gaining more. The literature on weight loss and following the usual "eat less, exercise more" thing really wasn't helping.
Two and half years ago, we were hit by Katrina, and I gained thirty pounds in the year following. (Didn't help that fruits and veggies were scarce for a long time) This past year it finally clicked for me that my weight gains for the past ten years have occured during or after stressful times. About a year ago I concentrated on reducing stress, saying no, making more "me" time, having quiet time at home, working less, and focusing on work I enjoy (I mostly work freelance and intermittently now), growing a garden (good for fresh veggies) and made that the first part of my "new" healthy life.
What happened is immediately my weight stabilized, and I stopped gaining everytime I ate. I counted calories for about a month, just to get an idea of healthy food counts, learn how they add up, it helped me get rid of processed foods. Without focusing on stress, I was doomed to fail.
I wish physicians would attach more significance to this factor, I am not sure if it equally applies to men, but I wouldn't doubt it does.
Good points! Stress is huge for me also. Food becomes a comfort. I eat much more when I am stressed and always the wrong foods. I get kind of self destructive. I also find that it is usually work stress that does me in. I tend to have digestive problems also when I am stressed. I also have co-workers who are always bringing in treats. They are always the ones who are dieting themselves.
In my days immediately after the military I gained about 30lbs. Now I can't eat anything good. This weight just won't come off.
My youth and my active lifestyle are fading as office chairs and gray hair hold me hostage from the food I love.
I don't have the time to workout and healthy food can be very expensive. Carb-counting seems to be the only effective and economical solution.
Not to mention I used to live 10 mins from my work site now it is closer to 1hr each way w/ out traffic. The best time to work out was always before and/or after work, but now that time is spent driving. I also had free access to a really nice gym, now I would have to pay around $45 monthly for my community gum.
Some things I miss, but I sure don't miss the time away from family.
I liked your article.
I've just recently started counting calories. For me it works. I don't say no to anything (last week my supervisor passed out candy bars for National Library Week and I ate mine--and counted the calories!), but also try to stay withing the healthy eating parameters. I went to the Mayo Clinic site and did some calculations and found 1200 calories a day will let me lose weight slowly. One day a week I have a no count day. I've found that this is working for me much more than any limiting certain foods diet and I haven't been hungry at all. In the past, I would just keep eating at night because there was food around--cheese, crackers, cereal, extra helpings of dinner. Now I know when to stop.
I have 'found' all the weight you people were so worried about and lost so diligently. I promise I will keep it and not let you find it again... You can 'count' on me!!
Love Calorie, formerly known as------->Andrea A
Even If I can help my fellow 'man' on this small little level I feel worthwhile as a human and my job here is done.....
You are welcome!!
*small-bow*
Terrific news, Andrea! You are my hero! LOL
I would implore anyone who counts calories as a tool for managing their health to learn more about nutrition instead. And I don't mean nutrition according to the food pyramid or anything like that, but real honest to goodness nutrition. People in the Western world have become so far removed from the fuel that they put into their bodies, and if we want to breach that gap, learning the basics of things like anatomy and nutrition are both good places to start. At least, that's what worked for me.
Thanks for the interesting article, Geminisunset. :)
Oh btw, I'm an ascending Gemini.
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